Appeal-ing..

I did wht i am suppose to.. i didnt even get to hand in d letter to person in charge.. seems lik they hav serious meeting now & then.. cz my colleague who went appeal, said they were having meeting d day b4 as well.. oni able to speak to another person through phone at d front desk.. all i can do is just hand in d letter to front desk, wait for them to hav meeting & discuss, wait for results, and PRAY..

meet another prp fr penang as well.. seems lik penang application totally gone hay wire.. NONE r being retained in penang.. d girl today was ady married even b4 she started her prp..

met wit secondary sch fren 4 supper.. haha.. meeting point, my hse.. they drive one car out.. haha mummy saw one fren, shouted: "oh my god!! i havnt seen u for 2 mths & u gained MORE weight!" haha.. mummy, u r too straight fwd dis time.. he gt no plc to hide his face dy la :p bt i guessed, mummy i think u were comparing him wit 2 how u rmb him 2 years back la.. haha.. i see lik no diff oni :p ever since he back fr uk.. lol..

hmm a fren, quit her job 2 mths back.. now learning fr her dad.. how 2 b traders!! haha.. she is doing some part time studying on it too.. seems lik dis job suits her better.. at least she now can explain to me, or discuss about her job happily.. unlike d previous one, i can oni hear complains & complains.. hopefully, in one year time, she can graduate as a licensed trader :) hehe..

i guess i shud start planning my part time study too.. MBA? or to continue wit my ballet classes? bt i'm also v interested in learning ballroom/ social dancing since long time ago.. hmm wonder if anyone wana hire part time ballet teacher? 24 is just nt enuf for me if i were to take up my hobbies! kakaka.. bt at d end of d day.. i still need to wait for my appeal results..

according to chansee, we shudnt went to lembaga famasi in pj, shud hav to straight to kkm in putrajaya?.. bt a lot ppl kena asked to refer back to pj for appeal.. which is d right way?!! system pls!! kena kick here & there.. sigh..

next day, went to AmBank to settle some stuff.. waliao!! super slow weh!! just a withdrawal took me 1 hr plus?! ~!@#$%^&* it's ok.. dis probably is my last transaction wit u guys.. haha :p bye bye!

Posting

等了好久的posting list.. 正如我们所猜测，我们之中，很多被派到沙巴沙捞越。。少数的被调到彭亨和吉兰丹。。从柔佛中央医院，一共8位到沙巴，2位到沙捞越，4位到彭亨，3位到吉兰丹，三位太太保留柔佛。。我是其中一位被派到吉兰丹的。。

之后，同事告诉我，内部有人告诉她，应为我们比其他人早交或准时交一些政府需要的文件，所以先被派到这几个州。。*三条线* 这是什么规则啊！！迟交的人反而可以留下。。真搞不懂！

的确，出乎我意料之外。。我重来没想过我会到吉兰丹工作。。

过去几天，都很沮丧。。因为我从没心理准备要到这么北部工作。。当时，我很乐意被调到沙巴沙捞越去。。我应该是同事中第一个崩溃的吧。。吓着了大家。。心情还真的一时平静不过来。。打了大约有50通电话给妈妈吧，但找不着人。。爸爸又开会。。只好快快收拾心情，厚着脸皮继续手上的工作。。

很多朋友都打电话慰问，谢谢你们了。。吉兰丹的同学告诉我，那里华人很被疼爱，不会很差。。工作量也很少。。生活没那么繁忙。。但或许，5-6年前，到过那儿旅游时遇到一些不愉快的经历，所以在脑海里已经将大家说的话过滤了一遍。。不好意思啦。。

想了倒想，去到任何一州，只要在城市，都应该没问题的。。只是，吉兰丹一直给我的影响是个很马来人的地区，马来意识很重。。很多东西这个不能，那个不能的。。无论如何，这也只是我的观念。。应该会很多人反对吧 ：p

一方面，离家太远了。。对不起，我是一个很粘家的人。。或许，家人是我现在最大的依靠吧。。因为自己以前错误的决定，偏偏要因为私人因素，放弃了到南岛或澳洲升学的机会，选择留马的双联课程，文凭有不能在新加坡工作，不能陪家人，不能照顾家人，已经很过意不去了。。怎样都得帮政府打工三年才有可能过去。。那倒也不一定。。

有人问我，沙巴不是更远吗？是啊！远，但也要值得！沙巴应该很好玩。。本来都已经约好yokdai, shirlene一起学游泳，潜水。。约好 zhiyang, cheeyen去爬山，探险。。约好choonsen，yanjing走透透。。还一度想到University Malaysia Sabah继续念书！现在泡汤了！只好到假期去探望大家了。。我是一个不能没事干的人。。不然我真的会发霉！

想过好几个方法。。找人嫁了！哈哈。。开玩笑 ：）

不干了！我可是认真的。。工作这么辛苦，还要被政府不顾人情的调来调去。。继续升学去！

改行，继续做我的舞蹈老师 ：）

跳槽到澳洲去！。。 等等。。

posting list出炉了以后，整个医院朦胧着无精打采的氛围。。一切来得太突然。。下午，每个人纷纷请假clear time off。。下个星期，每个人情了一星期假，为出发准备。。所以，明天应该是大家最后一起工作了。。到以后再见！

这一年，我交了很多朋友。。认真的朋友，体贴的朋友，谈心的朋友，好玩的朋友，拥抱的朋友。。种种。。现在，大家要兵分各地为人民服务。。有些无奈，很多的不舍。。不知何时再相聚。。谢谢你们曾经在我人生中射放美丽的烟火。。大家要加油。。

谢谢很多朋友的关心，让你们操心了。。心情可能有些不好，没有跟你们谈很多，只想静一静。。当时，如果越讨论，我的泪腺又会无止境的发挥它的用处。。等有机会，我平静些，我们再好好聊吧。。

G-Force

haha another spontaneous movie trip wit my colleagues again :p our initial plan was to watch 吓到笑 - a singapore production.. heard tht it was pretty funny & since we had a tough day in hospital, y nt just go out for sth simple, dun need use brain de..

bt it was a wednesday!! @.@ we couldnt get our seats.. sigh.. so i opt for G-force instead :) haha cute cute guinea pigs!! *fhern & voon sure so not going to watch, or else they gona scream "RODENTS!!!" throughout the whole movie.. lol.. & we wont hav peaceful time* :p

it was a v funny movie! haha.. talking on how they becum d heroes to d rescue of human kind! super high tech spy equipment they hav :) we had lots of fun & humours wit them! haha.. at least it's sth so much better than final destination..

CUTE!DONT MOVE!!
SPEED!!

路人皆知

“背叛”是最近很红的“连续剧”。。

令我意外的是，原来它的票房那么的卖座！竟然连隔壁和对面学校的同学都有在注意。。因为它的编剧出神入化，变化多端，很令人猜不透。。像文艺片吧。。你需要绞尽脑汁，把很多故事情节连接起来，才可能有头绪。。

第一男主角，一直到现在还没以正脸上银幕。。也是大多数人摸不着头绪的重点。。

而第二男主角，到底还在被蒙在鼓里？还是已经向她坦白？这两个男主角的角色相当的不同。。一个非常精灵，油腔滑调，可以瞒天过海的和她约会。。一个忠厚老实，可以对周遭的事物不闻不问。朋友看了也摇摇头。。实际上，他的朋友非常的为他打抱不平！试着去明示他，他却反应不过来。。真的很让人无能为力，不知要怎么帮他。。但我猜测，他应该很伤心，在掩饰自己的情绪。。加油咯 :)

奇怪的是，第一男主角为何可以这样？自己本身已经有女友了，还要插手他人的感情世界？大家都知道，男主角除了爱女友外，在外面都只是玩玩的。因为他们有计划结婚。。或许女主角也是受害者之一。但，好像没有人愿意为她打抱不平。。或许她也应该反省平时待人处事的态度吧。。

有人说：如果男生出轨了，女生体谅他是男生，接受他的贪玩，原谅他的过失。。但如果女方出轨了，男方可以一样大方的接受吗？好汉不吃回头草呀。。

相信它的票房应该还会步步高升。。应该还会讨论到补习班去吧！

希望结局可以快到来吧。。不然，迟早会有人加盐加醋。。这些无益的电影，快结束吧！看了也伤眼睛。。也可怜第二女主角和男主角要被他们牵着鼻子走，也希望他们有好的结局儞补儞补。。

有必要吗？

为什么同学不可以好好的相处？为何要利用她的善良来伤害她？我最看不过，就因为她欺负了她-我的好友。。

她的人品我也从没怀疑过。。因为不熟悉。。但，经过在功课上的切磋也开始对她有所意见。。某日，当一大班同学坐下来时，不由的感觉出大家对她都有所意见。。大家七嘴八舌的讨论起来。。

她对太多太多人说了不一样的故事，不一样的理由。。就为了自己的利益。。你把事情都“打理”地无缺。。可是，拼图总会拼起来的。。这一顿饭，也解开了大家一直以为，大家都对她没意见，除了自己。。时间，地点，场合都某和，就是背后的故事和理由都出入的太多。。狼来了3次，大家总会学会判断。。

更可怕的是，当你不折手段（好像严重了点。。），不顾他人的感受，不跟程序的达到了目的后，再受伤害的人面前猫哭老鼠假慈悲，旁人看了好想吐。。你演的戏，大家都看得见。。只是不要拆穿你而已。。如果你够聪明，应该可以感觉得出，大家对你都有一份恐惧感，不会真心对你。。如果可以，都不想被扯进你的势力范围里，永远都站的远远地。。这份恐惧感，并不代表我们都在害怕你，你可以与所欲为。。只是不想理，不想被利用，不想被欺骗，不想在友谊上再多留一疤。。好伙伴应该很难吧！

这位同学，我们一度怀疑她外遇了！她有一位很好好先生的男朋友。。为什么她可以这么狠心?对方是有家室的人。。虽然没有坦然或公开，但以行径来看，双方不止于暧昧吧。。言行举止偷偷摸摸。。篇了一堆有一堆的骗话给一堆漏洞。。但，若要人不知，除非己莫为。。但明眼人一看就知道了。。相信，她男友还被蒙在鼓里吧。。或许他已察觉了什么，但因为爱，也不想拆穿或面对。。正等待她回头。。我可怜的是他的男友。。我们也尝试过暗示他。但不晓得他是真的不知道，真的糊里糊涂，还是因为爱她而帮她隐瞒。。最可恨，一边，她不放开他，一边却在讨好他。。*没眼看*

有些事，我们也懒得理，不想知道。。有时偏偏会让你知道。。一段日子已过，怀疑已不成立了。。断定！至于对方是不是认真，自己看着办吧。。以课业伙伴的立场，不想多说。。以朋友（还可以维持多久？。。）的立场，珍惜眼前，不要贪心，不要伤害无辜的人。。不值得。。

演戏很辛苦吧。。下一次聚会，我不想戴着面具面对你。。也不戴面具上场，又怕误伤了自己和周遭的人。。

Final Destination 4

I'm Bored.. Not Nice.. Not Recommended..

It was a last minute decision to catch a movie wit a few colleagues today - zhiyang, waimeng, mintien & huiyin.. Pretty rush coz wana catch d 720pm show @ tebrau city.. jammed in d HOSPITAL compound for HALF an hr.. sigh.. n none of us wana go wit formal cloths & sticky body.. getting ready for everyone took another half an hr.. huh.. just in time to collect our reserved tickets..

Yeah! someone ady told me it wasnt tht good.. bt still we decided to see wit our own eyes.. mayb it was good, just not tht good as d previous ones?.. bt we were wrong.. Totally NO adrenaline rush in me (someone who can scream just for little little things..) nt to mention for d rest of them who were FD fans.. Too rush for a good movie.. it only last for 1 hr & 15 mins.. I think d director seriously out of idea dy.. Drag Me To Hell was so much better..

oh well......

time to pack for weekend trip! :D wheee ~~

疯。。。

好久没Multi-tasking 了

So much in my mind, yet so little was done by d end of d day...

1. Panic over the rumours (or i shud say pretty confirmed news?... prp everywhere in msia is getting d news).. 200 over vacancies in sabah sarawak to be filled by new prps & frps-to-be (ie ppl lik me..) Possibilities of getting it.. HIGH...
[PANIC x1000]

2. Research Project Presentation... i dont even know how to operate SPSS to analyse my results... Why must we use SPSS? Why i was taught using other sys in uni?
[PANIC x 10]

3. To come up wit plans for gathering - b4 prp life ends.. gotta hav hang out! lots discussion, planning & booking to be done..
3.1 Muar-Melacca Jalan-jalan cari makan - status: confirmed
3.2 Next Fri chill out night cum farewell for ChanSee & Fei @ The Hive, Thistle - status: confirmed
3.3 XinYin, Fhern & Voon road trip KL-JB - status: might nt b ard :(
3.4 Kite Flying @ Pasir Gudang - status: organiser: WaiMeng
3.5 Sing K again? - status: pending
3.6 Meet up wit Angeline & colleague, stay in JB for enforcement - status: to be confirmed
3.7 Mooncake Fest @ Desaru 2D1N as Farewell prp 08/09? - status: organiser: JingMein
3.8 Christine's engagement @ KL - status: time off to be approved..
3,9 Paintball @ Danga City - status: organiser: MinTien - pending?..
[Looking Fwd x 100]

4. New on call timetable just release @ 11:30pm... :S
(Still figuring who to swap who to replace...)
[Panic x 10]
- Thx PehVoon for saving my day! :D

5. To clean & Tidy my room - pending

6. Missing home..
[Depressed x 10]

7. Shud start looking for new home?... bt once i start searching, i'm always d bad luck ones... so sure i will kena sabah sarawak... bt i dun wan last minute!

8. ... to cont...

in d end, my target to do/ learn using SPSS - failed.. haha..

PRP Research Project.. Due..

Sigh.. i tot we can just ignore it.. who go & remind big boss about dis research?! now i'm given nt even a week time to analyse my datas.. moreover, need to use SPSS.. Why must SPSS?!!!!! cant we just use Excel or other easier more human understood system?... i nv being taught how 2 use SPSS.. once open.. i can hardly know how 2 key in data into at d 1st plc :(

now panic attack liao :( moreover, was planning for muar-melacca-kl trip dis weekend!! i guess, gona "pao tang" (boil soup) dy.. haih..

oh ya, new members, new helpers, more hands! 5 prps joined us 2 weeks ago, mainly from UiTM & UIA.. 2 days ago, another 8 prps from IMU bpharm + mpharm joined the team..

*Mr R told them, he gona send 20 prps to sabah sarawak :'( i'm d 1st?.. putrajaya will ask me go report to sabah sarawak straight away? i seriously in panic attack x2 now.. coz my frp plcment form, i put ALL KL!!*

*pray pray*

Who! Siapa! 谁？！

Why i added a few links to my fren's blog can just went missing fr d page!? WHO touches it!! ~!@#$%^&*

7th mth?.......

*pray pray* dun play wit me.. i'm a v good girl.. tolong tolong...

原来

无意间知道
他有个部落格
静悄悄的登入。

一直以来，
听过太多的是是非非
从没想过细心的认识
这一位朋友。。

仔细地从第一篇
读到最后一篇
才发现
原来他心中有个她
也从而知道他们的过去
虽然没有叙述得很明显
但心中不自觉为了他痛
也从而知道嘻嘻哈哈的他
也有放不下的一段故事

看完了每一篇文章
不由得让我更崇拜你
欣赏你的个性
尊重你的理性，感性
你真的很多变 - 好的
要了解你这朋友
像剥葱头般。。
一层有一层。。
累了又泪。。
不过，总算有一些收获

本希望冰山可以在劈一次
最后乃选择不让他爆发
否则一发不可收拾
就让它好好保留吧！
下一次，会更美。。

*原来。。。。。。
就只能为你加油打气！:D *

朋友！等待是值得的！
相信幸福总有一天
会站在你身边！
加油！

ABANDONED blog :p

SOOOO long since i update :) haha it has been awhile.. coming to about 4 mths tht i didnt update my blog, bt i dun think anyone does miss it.. hehe..

it's just to slow to wait for my internet connection in jb to load.. so.. sien...... drop the thought of blogging dy.. bt i just watched a worth watching movie last night :) - The Accuracy of Death & would like to share it..

& i gona start blogging in reverse mode again :p haha

某年某月某日

那晚，超不想让疲惫的眼睛休息
因为
很少可以静静的感受
珍惜彼此的陪伴

那晚，很不愿地闭上双眼
因为
害怕你会就这样的走开

那冻结的空气，时光
仿佛拉进了彼此
却又在思想上拉开了距离
奇妙。。。

不知不觉，
习惯性的有你的陪伴
间接或无形的，
将令我在
接下来的日子措手不及

谢谢您，这一来的陪伴。。。
给了我很多的安慰，
鼓励及勇气
愿您天天开心，
活出自己 ：）

一个像夏天 一个像秋天 - 范玮琪

6th feb 2009 - CNY bbq night @ shirlene hse

Coming to the end on CNY 2009 - my colleagues & i celebrated early chap goh meh at shirlene hse, BBQ.. it was pretty lucky tht it didnt rain tht night.. a few of us - waimeng, cheeyen, chansee, leefern & i sacrificed our long lunch break, went to shirlene hse to start BBQ preparation..

After work at 5pm tht night, everyone went home to change cloths, bath etc then back to shirlene hse continue with starting up the fire..

finally, after one hour, we saw some "sparks"... ok, ppl asked me, how 2 BB on the floor?! ans: saw the bricks?.. it's for us to put a layer of dawai on top of it - inovative ppl!
i think it went off again... haih.. guys! add oil le..!!

shirlene's neighbour pity us, & lend us their BBQ pit.. so much proper.. haha..

yet, the guys still didnt manage to blast the fire! here come our hero! neighbourhood uncle + electric fan!

food! -sausages, chicken wings, potatoes salad, fried beehon, sambal prawn, satay, choco bananas, agar-agar antioxidants & many more-

wrapping up our sambal prawn!

ppl to be credit: chansee, jo & i.. we did all the shopping & most of the preparation the night b4.. it's tiring, esp after one day of hectic work schedule.. bt we r happy to see everyone appreciates & enjoy the day.. worth!

hohoho.. pretty lady pharmacists in HSAJB

everyone is sending JenIng off.. poor girl, had night shift tht day..

yanjing & i

ppl in red! *gong xi gong xi*

-choonsen, waimeng, dr ng, ms chong, leeyin, jingmein & i-

the black + misc colour

-chansee, jo, shirlene, suzjian, qris, kimyen, leefern, yanjing, zhiyang, peifen, cheeyen, mintien & kelvin-

the IMUs -mpharm + bpharm-

the USMs, UMs, UKMs

shirlene & i *who's hand is tht!!* anyway, happy moo moo year :D

jojo & i

leefern the bday girl!

oh both of us got bday present! surprise fr a few of them :D

the girls! :D

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 girls, one more & he can bcum "wai siew po" dy..

kimyen, khangwern & i

zhiyang & i

cheeyen & i

peifen & i

cleaning time!

ended the day with dis few ppl, trying to find the water hose..

great day! hope we will hav more gathering.. get the mind out of work!